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fifth april.

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let's chase the summer and forget the world.

restless 3book of days was fantastic. i was so so inspired by it. now i can truly understand what jingzhi said to me on the night of hfos, that watching us dance makes her feel like dancing again. watching them really makes me feel like dancing. dance is like such an enjoyment and everything. yesterday at restless three i can reallyreally see how they are so enjoying their dance. they let their emotions free and let their passion flow. it was simply wonderful. chit said she felt jealous. and i felt the same way. like we can never be part of this thing. not restless. if only there will be another hfos, i will live my life with no regrets. dance is truly the language of the universe. book of days left me trulytruly touched. during thankyou i felt like crying. during clapping i felt like giving them a standing ovation. like after hfos we can better relate to how theyre feeling. their emotions on the stage and their passion for dance. the long long hours of practices after practices every single day after school. the tough times when everyone got so so stressed up. but on the stage, everything else seems so so insignificant. the dance, the emotions, the passion takes priority over everything else. you just feel like dancing like this your whole entire life. it was perfect.

the happily dancing drop of pink rain;

i miss scuba. i miss the pool. ): ): ): i miss the fake fishes and turtles they throw into the hwachong pool so it will seem like the ocean. i miss the disgusting regulator and the tight tight diver suit. i miss looking super unglam when you wear a diver's suit carrying the oxygen tank underwater in a swimming pool. i miss being so fearful and looking around for anybody who could be watching us this grp of people learning how to dive in a pool. i miss being stupid when i drop the mask and beng had to pick it up. i miss blowing bubbles. i miss breathing thru our mouths. i miss looking like idiots suntanning while sleeping waiting for our turn to get into the pool. i miss playing around with wanteng zouzhao shermaine charmaine in the pool. i miss charmaine teaching us how to dive. i miss the lifeguard blowing his whistle at us and saying, no shoes! no plunging! i miss the smell of chlorine. i miss scubaaa. it shall remain as my best sabbatical memory ever.

why is it that the first few days always seem so bad that you want it to end. then you realised that things are getting better. people are getting better. and BOO just when everyone gets to know each other it has to end. whywhywhy. this is totally just so frustrating.

hear the rush of the ocean;

seems like everyone is so stressed up at this point of time. worrying about this and that. well at least for you guys don worry! the holidays are coming. in comparison, to me holidays only mean more for me to worry.

hwachong dance night touch'o6 was great! the dancers were very synchronised and all. saw jolene lim mian and liu qian! they were great :D no chance for me to get in next year. perhaps it shall just be content staying a dream; anyway yeah it was good. really good. really different from mr raj's style and everything but really good(: there was this reallyreally sexy dance ahaha. they did a good job with the breakdance and everything. reallyreally cool(:

finally finished bio talk today. spent dono how many hours on it. finally finished. am i supposed to be feeling relieved? i still have LA portfolio, which only serves to make me feel damn screwed. i want to sleep early, yet i have so many things undone. ugh.

tmr's start of sabbaticals. scubadiving. hope it will be fun! tuesday and thursday will be uh, scary though. shucks.

here i am, so alone;

yknow i just realised actually im quite deprived. hah! okay thats just a random thought(:

i was thinking about people. and how fortunate they are to have someone loving them. it feels good to be loved yah <3 yes! and they should really not take it for granted. and dont ever give up. cos once you do, when u regret it, you will be feeling horrible. dont regret, cos it feels horrible. haha. wise words from jiaying :D totally inexperienced and everything. but watched alot of tvee k(:

heard something horrible today! people said those who signed up for scuba diving as sabbatical may (take note, may) be going over to that pool for lessons. pleaseplease dont scare me please. no way man. no way. guess what. i realised we can de-register. thats what i will probably do. if that comes true(: anyway, another great song.

Cool
-gwen stefani

It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life...
Passes things get more comfortable
Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool

We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain

Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles, and now we're hangin' out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool


like so cool and everything. talking about getting past all the obstacles. get past all the obstacles life has thrown in your path. yeah, cool! :D we should feel like this more often. yknow the feeling of being without a care in the world? IT'S AWESOME. come to think of it, i haven been feeling like that in quite a long while. where are you.

i laid in bed for a long long time yesterday night. and when my mom woke me up i still thought it was like 1 plus 2 am and i haven fallen asleep. i think i was sleeping like, subconsciously. drifting in and out. hmmm. i wonder why.

drifting in and out;

Beep
-the pussycat dolls

Ha, ha-ha, ha-ha
Ha, ha-ha, ha
Ha-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha
Ha, ha-ha, ha

[Will.I.Am]
It's funny how a man only thinks about the...
You got a real big heart, but I'm looking at your...
You got real big brains, but I'm looking at your...
Girl, there ain't no pain in me looking at your...

[PCD]
I don't give a...
Keep looking at my...
'Cause it don't mean a thing if you're looking at my...
I'm a do my thing while you're playing with your...
Ha, ha-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha

Every boy's the same
Since I been in the seventh grade
They been trying to get with me
Trying to (Ha, ha-ha, ha, ha-ha)
They always got a plan
To be my one and only man
Want to hold me with their hands
Want to (Ha, ha-ha, ha, ha-ha)
I keep turning them down
But, they always come around
Asking me to go around
That's not the way it's going down

'Cause they only want
Only want my ha, ha-ha
Ha, ha-ha
Only want what they want
But, na, ah-ah
Na, ah-ah

[Will.I.Am]
It's funny how a man only thinks about the...
You got a real big heart, but I'm looking at your...
You got real big brains, but I'm looking at your...
Girl, there ain't no pain in me looking at your...

[PCD]
I don't give a...
Keep looking at my...
'Cause it don't mean a thing if you're looking at my...
I'm a do my thing while you're playing with your...
Ha, ha-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha

Do you know that no
Don't mean yes, it means no
So just hold up, wait a minute
Let me put my two cents in it
One, just be patient
Don't be rushing
Like you're anxious
And two, you're just too aggressive
So try to get your (Ahh)

Do you know that I know?
And I don't want to go there

Only want
Only want my ha, ha-ha
Ha, ha-ha
Only want what they want
But, na, ah-ah
Na, ah-ah

[Will.I.Am]
It's funny how a man only thinks about the...
You got a real big heart, but I'm looking at your...
You got real big brains, but I'm looking at your...
Girl, there ain't no pain in me looking at your...

[PCD]
I don't give a...
Keep looking at my...
'Cause it don't mean a thing if you're looking at my...
I'm a do my thing while you're playing with your...
Ha, ha-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha

[Will.I.Am]
Boomp-boomp, Omp-omp
Boomp, boomp-boomp
Boomp-boomp, Omp-omp
Boomp, boomp-boomp
[Repeated]

[PCD]
Ooh, you've got it bad I can tell
You want it bad, but oh well
Dude, what you got for me
Is something I
Something I don't need
Oh!

[Will.I.Am]
It's funny how a man only thinks about the...
You got a real big heart, but I'm looking at your...
You got real big brains, but I'm looking at your...
Girl, there ain't no pain in me looking at your...

[PCD]
I don't give a...
Keep looking at my...
'Cause it don't mean a thing if you're looking at my...
I'm a do my thing while you're playing with your...
Ha, ha-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha

[Will.I.Am]
It's funny how a man only thinks about the...
You got a real big heart, but I'm looking at your...
You got real big brains, but I'm looking at your...
Girl, there ain't no pain in me looking at your...

[PCD]
I don't give a...
Keep looking at my...
'Cause it don't mean a thing if you're looking at my...
I'm a do my thing while you're playing with your...
Ha, ha-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha


i love this song! awesome :D funk and everything.
anyway today went quite all right. tmr is gng to be quite a slacky day(: I HOPE. with special interest talk. sick of feeling stressed out. and i haven started on bio SIA yet for goodness sake. yeah. been practising dance :D hope we will do a good job on wednesday! wed is gna be stressful. LA compre timed trial, pe dance assessment and chem spa skill 2.

OH YAH I HAD A REALLY TRAUMATISING MORNING TODAY. i called the police for the first time in my life. okay. i hope this whole thing will end soon.

i miss everyone! like i said. this is gonna be a tough week. strive on !

a long distance call;

haven been doing anything much. yknow how is feels when you know you got a hell lot of things undone that are due the next week and yet ure not doing anything cos although u feel damn screwed u just dont feel like waking up and do them? sometimes i just feel like giving myself a slap on my face to wake me up. go on like this im not gng to get 65% overall this year and im not gng over to hwachong. something i would like to keep reminding myself.
you need to cross that bridge.

feeling really screwed cos im feeling really down and i finally realised what chit and zouzhao and everybody is talking about when they ask why do i look so sad. can you believe it even my aunt asked me the same question yesterday when the family and folks are out for dinner to celebrate mother's day. "why do you always look so moody?"

just cant bring myself to smile. perhaps thats all i can say. just feel like stoning and moping around feeling sorry for myself and feeling real pathetic. wondering about life. what have i actually been doing all these years. studyingstudyingstudying. waiting for the night cos tmr will be another day we'll all go to school and the whole cycle will repeat itself. striving for that 65% so we can all cross the bridge proudly. the problem is we are doing what we are doing cos we have to do it. AHH DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT. EVEN I DONT.

nicole's post expressed how i have always been feeling. but i never really thot much of it. now come to think of it it's pretty true.

"sigh.i think no words can express how i'm feeling so you'll probably not understand what i'm saying right now.
sometimes i feel so stressed.but life seems so relaxing.there seems to be so many things to worry about.yet those things seem so insignificant.i just want to give up sometimes.and at the same time life seems so exciting.i want to do so many things.but life just doesn't permit me to do so.and there are so many more.but there's no point in typing them out.DO YOU UNDERSTAND.EVEN I DON'T."

thats how im feeling. always been feeling. sometimes you just want to give up, but at the same time life seems so exciting and ure anticipating how ur life is gng to turn out. i understand, nicole. i really do. thanks for saying what i have always wanted to say. cheerup okay nicole. remember we have a promise.

i saw this on the tvee days ago. "the happiness you get from ur life is definitely going to be much less from the agony you are going to suffer. yet everyone still strives on cos they know that that small degree of happiness is all going to be worth it. worth everything." thats so so true. thats what all of us are doing arent we?

it's going to be a tough week ahead. i can predict im going to be dealt yet another blow tmr morning.
wheres my pillar of support. i need you. yes you. you.

you;

i got so many things to do. bio SIA. LA portfolio. and all those crap. im so tired! of everything. everything. and i feel so pissed off too. i dontknow why ugh this is like damn frustrating.

anyway i watched voice today with wanteng bunny yueyang :D haha it was kind of freaky. haha my first nc16 show(: SIXTEEN <3

IM FEELING SO LOST. feel like screaming! suddenly there's nothing to look forward to anymore. nothing. nothing more. vodka <3.

just want to listen to some sadsadsad songs and cry myself to sleep.

it rained everyday that you were gone;

ugh yknow the feeling when you know your friend's so sad and depressed. like one of those days when you just feel so insignificant. yet you dont know what to do. dontknow how to comfort to make her feel better. this is so frustrating. UGH. I WANT TO SCREAM. STUPID.

anyway we finished our dance for pe! whats left is projectwork and practice and more practice! :D so hardworking we were camping in the boarding school function room practising. and cheryl is ever so obsessed with her *beep* song. HAHA.

i feel like kicking everything i see. i feel like screaming my lungs out. UGH IM STILL FEELING SO FRUSTRATED. TEACH ME HOW TO MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY. LIKE WHENEVER IM SAD YOU KNOW HOW TO CHEER ME UP. NOW WHEN URE SAD I FEEL SO HELPLESS SO USELESS. GOD.

it rained everyday that you were gone;

had csm today at hwachong! somehow it feels like it hasnt really happened. AH WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT. nvm. but wanteng feels the same way as me! so, oh wells. anyway good job to all the athletes who participated and to the hwachong ncc and band for their performances(: can see much effort must have been put into them yeah. it's the same thing with dance. when we rehearsed so many times for this particular item or performance or whatever. we reallyreally put in alof of effort. and we reallyreally shldnt laugh or what when people made mistakes. cos they didnt do it on purpose of cos everyone wants to do it perfectly but when it happens it happens yeah. and after that the person will not feel so good and cant concentrate as much so we really shld tell them to jiayou(: hmm. reminds me of the stupid sash thing during it's a miracle for hfos. i felt so stupid then. and the mid keeps drifting off to worry about what happened what will happen and what not. BAH. yeah. so i guess it's easier to relate to that kind of feeling.

it doesnt matter if you fall.
what matters is you pick yourself up(:

went black canyon for lunch today. nicole was there!! :D haha thanks dear for the reallyreally nicey nighttime-ish letter and choco baby! SO SWEET OF YOU DARLING <3 then watched mission impossible three with sharon jiayi jiayuan and CHIT! :D the movie was great! so so acion packed and keeps you gripping to your seat every second. i really have no idea how they made the movie. impossible to let your eyes drift off from the screen haha like glued to the screen every moment every second. go watch gogogo! :D

happily dancing drops of pink rain;

combined sports meet tmr!(: one very slacky day :D our last csm in nanyang! next year we'll be against nanyang. it's incredible how things can change(:

cheryl yueyang bunny and i were dancing to gwen stefani's what you waiting for for pe. hope we will do well for assessment next wednesday!(:

sometimes it just so happens youre just not important enough.just because you dont do it well.just because the teacher doesnt like you.just because ure not cute not pretty not some big shot you will always (and always) be left out.you will never be important enough.you will never be good enough for them.lets face it.life's like this.what can I do.

in the spirit of true sportsmanship;

What you waiting for
-gwen stefani
What an amazing time
What a family
How did the years go by?
Now it's only me

Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
(La la la la la)

Like a cat in heat stuck in a moving car
A scary conversations,
Shut my eyes, can't find the brake
What if they say that you're a climber?

Naturally i'm worried if i do it alone
Who really cares cuz it's your life
You never know, it could be great
Take a chance cuz you might grow
Oh... oh ohhh

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock

Take a chance you stupid Ho

Like an echo pedal, you're repeating yourself
You know it all by heart
Why are you standing in one place?
Born to blossom, bloom to perish

Your moment will run out
Cuz of your sex chromosome
I know it's so messed up how our society all thinks (for sure)
Life is short, you're capable (uh huh)
Oh... oh ohhh

LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

I can't wait to go
Back into Japan
Get me lots of brand new fans
Osaka, Tokyo
You Harajuku girls
Damn, you've got some wicked style...

GO!
LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho

Take a chance, you stupid ho
What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho
Take a chance, you stupid ho


chinese is overr! :D hope i did okay. really cant afford to do badly. chinese is like so subjective and everything. i was practically rushing through my compres in paper two. bah. now that chinese's gone, up are those SIAs and projects and blahblahblah. i want to go out! i want to watch takethelead and missionimpossiblethree and aquamarine and all the nc16 movies coming up! :D SIXTEEN! <3

nicole ure werent online! how was french oral! im sure u did okay!(: i've got something for you dear! tmr lunch at studio kay! :D

was happy after chinese today. but my grandma was pissed! BAH at some pigtrotters, like whatever like i care. anyway she was pissed. yeah. took a long time to calm down. shouting and screaming away. i dontwant to live in fantasies forever, i want to move back to northvale. i reallyreally want to.

i hate mosquitoes! they are biting me. and there are loads of them everywhere i go. lots in 403 classroom. and our classroom is turning into a zoo. today during chinese papertwo i heard the sound of a lizard. LIZARD, FOR GOODNESS SAKE. EEW. that time we saw the lizard too. spiders, loads of them which scare bingyu like mad. LOTS OF CREEPY BLACK ANTS EEW.

just found out we will be missing three dance pracs in a row. the past saturday due to polling. thurs got combined sports meet. then following sat is some vesak day holiday. goodness me. how to survive! THREE PRACTICES. OH MY GOD.

i dontknow why. for some strange reason im feeling sad again. perhaps it's the combination of the really heavy rain just now. the cold air. and everything. im so tired. so so very tired. that time i was telling shuhui im so tired. of life. of everything. sigh. somehow whenever i feel happy, it just wouldnt last. it wouldnt. chit told me something i didnt realise yesterday. she said i've changed. i used to be reallyreally happy. now i always look so sad. so depressed. she said "youre not like the jiaying i once knew," is it true? zouzhao has also been asking, why do you always look so sad! sigh. i dontknow. i really dontknow. maybe thats the way life goes. or at least, thats the way my life goes. i dontwant to live the rest of my life through like this. not one second happy, the other sad. i dontwant to have to remind myself of unhappy stuff. and stress. like how whenever im feeling very happy i have to remind myself im soon gng home to face my grandma again. the rain and the cold air reminded me of northvale. i miss northvale so much. then i will feel so sad. whenever i want to feel free and happy, i have to get myself back on track by reminding myself of chinese exam on monday. i cannot afford to flunk it.
sometimes i would just really want to break down and cry. but i cant. i reallyreally hope my life will get better after monday. after the exam. i hate feeling like this. ugh.

was finding a song to listen to on media player. greenwaves<3 it always sound so sad. perfect for my mood now. im tired. i need to sleep. goodnights everyone.

i need happiness. i need joy. i need smiles. i need northvale. i need freedom. i need a hug. a long tight tight hug. i need you.

nicole said she gets sad when i get sad. i dontwant to see you sad darling. because of you, i will try to smile. you too k dear. we have a promise.

need to be held;

physics test i over! i think i screwed it up bigtime. oh well,never really had much hope placed on physics. BAH.

gng anyi's house tmr to try out our milkshakes HAHA hope it'll be a success!

tmr is polling day! which means NO DANCE. this is so so depressing. i miss dance! didnt dance much on thurs cos we were supposed to have cca suspended since there's chinesemidyears on monday but sharon xueen yunning and i still went! :D hmmm realised quite some things about dance and our new batch of dancers this year. kind of disappointed. dont really know what to think. i wonder what will happen when we leave! i guess now we must put in extra effort in getting the whole dance troupe to bond and stuff. ugh. and for the sec ones to treasure their chance to be in the studio, to be part of this big lovely family, to be part of nymd.
i hope the sec ones will soon possess the same attitude we all have for dance. like how we miss prac when there is this polling day and causes us to miss a day of dance. like how we always jump for delight when we hear there's practice. bah. it's hard. we have to go through stuff together as one. i really want to leave nanyang and nymd knowing that nymd will stay together as one. united. together. ONE WHOLE. like how it was during hfos. the nights of magic. speaking of hfos, it was love. our love. our passion. no one has the right to criticise it, ever.
HFOS IS LOVE <3

haha im hopeless i wasnt any help to nicole at all when she was lost with her LA compre. bah! sorry, nicole! ): didnt see you in school much today! but ure still online! haha whee(:

two more days to physics test.
five more days to chinesemidyears.

i totally cant understand physics BLAHBLAH. what the hell. moments, forces, density BAH. EEE. i cant seem to like physics. maybe im not trying hard enough. today mrs wong didnt come for bio lesson! then ruibin said she took mc for one month. one month. but luckily heard that she went for 401 bio lesson and gave them back their tests and all. so she's in school! haha what unreliable news we've got there(: whee. but i wonder why she didnt come for class today. ANYWAY i miss mrs wong! i miss bio! bio is the only thing making me look forward to school(: i dont understand why people are saying bio is boring and blahblah. and they can actually stand physics. sigh oh wells haha! i totally totally totally dreaddd physics. physics. NO WAY.

one more test. one more exam. i cant wait for chinese midyears to be overr! then we will all be free. i haven gone to town for so very long! haha it was like just monday when we went take macs to celebrate bernice's birthday, but what i mean is like really go out and have fun or something! and NOT walking around town with a physics textbook in my arms!(:

yay not stopping dance tmr! haha anyway it's just one more practice before the exam. so wells. not like i will study if i dont go :D and kerri is coming dance tmr! haha(: looking forward to acjc dance night restless3 and hci dance night! whee(: dancers time together again nymd<3

im gng to watch hfos dvd again!<3

when all we had was a hat full of stars;

got back threee tests today. bio chinese chem. guess theyre quite okay compared to math. math was horrifically horrible. bah. yes. so im happy! but im so gng to fail my chem spa tmr. TMR. SKILL 3. IM SO DEAD. and physics this friday. howhowhow. PHYSICS IM TRYING TO LOVE YOU. PLEASE LOVE ME BACK.
kerri came back today too! she looked so red! haha everybody were crowding at the studio waiting for kerri's entrance HAHA(: she still looked as cute as ever! as kerri-ish! :D she got another pair of earholes! and chit says she looks pai. haha. people with two pairs of earholes are NOT pai okay! :D
went for heats this afternoon at hci and guess what! haha i saw zhiyang!! he was running around the school! whee(: oh and wanteng ran really fast for 4by1! YEAH YOU GO WANTENG :D

i saw nicole around school loads of times today!(: but nicole i think i was way late again tonight you already went offline! grr lets hope tmr dont rain we'll have our morning date! :D

oh yah. special interest talk today ms lena teo talked about promotion criteria and all. i dont want to repeat my secfour year. i wld rather go jump down a flat than to do that ): my math is really horrible! double weightage goodness me. save me save me save me. i plead to you God. mdm chew says we're supposed to stop cca from this week. but we're still gng on thurs. like there's only one practice becos of the general elections on sat. yeah. chinese lecture today jiayi jiayuan and i were playing bingo! HAHA.

i want to be happy, really truly happy.

seduction is not a technique;it's a SCIENCE

happy birthday bernice! <3
hope you had a memorable birthday today with us at orchard macs! :D must remember the five of us who were there! hilary yunyi nicole marianne and i! <3 marianne nicole and i got your six small cute little round cakes k!(: yay.
haha took neoprints! it was kinda fast. anyway first neos taken with the juniors! :D haha. wanted to go for a movie but had to study physics! we must go watch one soon too k! :D DANCERS UNITE!<3
nicole!you werent online when i came! ): guess i was too late ): i miss talking to you online darling!<3 it was fun today at orchard with you(: and the nicenice chocolate fondue from beard papa! and thankyou for always being there to listen when im feeling horrible you really cheered me up alot and make me listen to whats right. thanks dear! seeyou tmr okay! morning date! :D

then went off to study physics with jessamin! we stayed in northvale! HOW I MISS NORTHVALE. ): I WANT TO MOVE BACK SOON SOON SOON. sigh. anyway we had fun while studying! jess we made threee discoveries on northvale! 1) they have nice and funny and verry amusing security guards who ask you whats your name and tell you you are smart for trying to sneak in a friend when you didnt(: 2) they have new beach chairs and tables beside the pool with guys sitting there who dont have pencil leads! :D 3) northvale got a basketball team! HAHA.
jess yknow i can always be so myself and be so happy when im with you! thankyou dear for making today so fun and make studying physics seem more interesting (you were teaching me about fleming's left hand rule! :D )

kerri is back in singapore!(: and we finally finally got our hfos dvd!<3

the past two days were horrible ): living in fear and despair. really glad today got better.
i like the feeling of being happy.